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Name: Candise P( Candi P)
Age: 20 years old
Date of Birth: Febuary15
Horoscope Sign: Aquarius
Motherhood: Mother of 1
Residence: South Florida via NY

I'm an 80's baby. Born February 15th ((Aquarius to the fullest)). For those who wonder - I am NOT mixed with any other ethnicity. Simply and beautifully African American. New York born and bread. Now residing in South Florida. Although I'm loving the fun and sun, NOTHING beats New York.

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    Friday, November 30, 2007
    He's Arrived! { freed on 7:54 PM



    What an experience! One second Im at a doctors appointment, next thing you know Im being told my baby will be here later on that evening. Scared, happy, anxious, I had so many emotions I didn't know what to do with myself.

    The early morning (3am) of the 19th I was having contractions after walking around the mall two days in a row. By 4am I was at the hospital and being admitted - I was only 1 centimeter dialated, after 2 days of pain comming and going. I started to get nervous knowing that more pain was to come and no one but God knew how long it would take me to get fully dialated. By 8:45am I was discharged and on my way to the doctors appointment I had already scheduled from a week prior. At the doctor I learned that It would be safer and easier for me to have a c-section. I feared this the most my whole pregnancy. I wanted to at least try and give birth naturally. Daddy to be assured me that things would be fine and I went home to rest for the few hours I had before going to the hospital to be prepped for the surgery.
    Scared or not I took my butt to bed to ease my mind and get ready for motherhood - my baby boy would be there later on that night and I was thrilled.


    Seriously I boo hooed the whole entire process, I had never had surgery before and I had no control over my body with the epidural in my system. I was nervous that something might go wrong.
    It was a good thing that my doctor decided to do the section that day because the cord was around my his neck and he was facing the wrong way. When they pulled him out he didn't even cry. I think he let out a sigh of relief lol - he was ready to come out too!

    After they cleaned him all up one of the nurses brought him over to me and I got the first glimpse of my beautiful baby boy - never felt anything like that in my life. Honestly he could have been purple and had 1 arm and 1 leg and I would have still been in love. I didn't think I could have cried anymore but I did while repeating over and over again "is he alright, is he alright?".
    I was so drugged up from all the pain killers and the epidural that still hadn't wore off that I knocked out in the recovery room for about 2 hours. Anytime I wake I ask for my son but they had him in the nursery and would not let me have him until I was feeling better. It felt like foreverr before they finally bought him to me and I was able to feed him and spend time with him. I was sitll a little loopy so everything was so surreal to me.
    This was the begining of a new begining for me. I've never been so in love.

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    Sunday, November 18, 2007
    At Any Moment { freed on 9:35 PM

    Im sitting here waiting on something to snack on __ while getting contraction after contraction. My doc says I'll know when it's time to go (to the hospital) but I'm not going to want to go reguardless. I just want to wake up when they hand me the bundle of what will be mine forever! I don't think I'll be missing anything - Daddy to be can re-cap everything I missed lol.

    Knowing that at any minute I could be off to the hospital to have this baby is nerve wrecking. Really I don't know what to feel. I'm super anxious. Crazy nervous. So ready for him to be on the outside. Don't know what to expect. If there was a word for the 45million emotions I have I'd share it with you all but I doubt there'd be one I could find. I'm sleepy as all hell but can't get any rest 'cause my mind is going a mile a minute.
    I really have 2 more weeks and five days (19 days in total) to go until the original due date but home-boy has been clawing his way out since October. I've been pregnant for 261 days (and counting ...) and quite frankly - It's been real but I don't think I'll miss it at this point.
    pregnancy due date



    My bags are packed and at the door.

    Car seat is installed in the back seat.

    Family made aware it's any day.

    I'm ready to go!!!!

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    Friday, November 16, 2007
    Friday's Feast { freed on 4:15 PM




    Appetizer
    What was your first “real” job?

    Hmmmmm now what do we consider real!? If I'm making money it's got to be real + a job and a profession are two completely different things. But my first job was at a supermarket.

    Soup
    Where would you go if you wanted to spark your creativity?

    In the zone. I usually don't need to be anywhere to get the juices flowing but if I wanted to choose somewhere it'd be the beach. The beach always gets my mind going.

    Salad
    Complete this sentence: I am embarrassed when…

    I get clumsy.

    Main Course
    What values did your parents instill in you?

    Too many to name really. Not to be lazy is one but I really don't feel like writing everything out right now lol.

    Dessert
    Name 3 fads from your teenage years.

    Hmmmmmmm ....
    1.] Energy drinks
    2.] Myspace
    3.] Low Rise Jeans

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    Tuesday, November 13, 2007
    Right On Time { freed on 8:13 PM

    Was surfing the net today and came across a good read on a website I frequent for her extreme creativity, and great blogs KissChanel.com I thought I'd share since it was so on time for me I thought maybe it might be for some of yall.

    *Enjoy*


    Having feelings are not good or bad, they just are. Reflect on it. Jealousy is simply reminding you that you’re worthy of the best and that you fiend for the best.

    ...If you allow yourself to be jealous, there’s no room for love. If you allow yourself to be in denial about your jealousy, there’s no room for you to be loyal and honest.

    ...Don’t let anyone steal your spirit. Remain peaceful. When disharmony present themselves into our lives…stand firm and just block anymore incoming discord.

    ... Sometimes people are so cloudy about their feelings that they end up disrespecting you, in attempt to make themselves feel better. ... Not everyone is trying to “out-do” them yet they put up that front as if they’re better than you. Guaranteed, their shit stinks just like yours. They must have missed the memo. I tell it like this, let go of the “hate” and focus on how you can prosper.

    That is the most truest way you can move on & be the better person.




    Anywho.....
    I went to the doctors office yesturday for my weekly and boy did I freak myself out! We talked about the possiblity of a c-section and I think my mind got the best of me. Don't get me wrong - a c-section would be a lot easier (with the exception of the recooperation time :( Im not trying to think about it but that's hard as I don't know what. Especially with the fact that my mother (even though she had other circumstances) had a c-section and almost died from blood loss while giving birth to my brother. That makes it a little hard to think about myself being in the same position.
    She [my doctor] said I could stop taking my medicine and that means the baby will be here sooner than I thought - sooner than we all thought. I finally get to meet my little bean!!!

    Nip/Tuck comes on in about an hour and I plan on showering and attempting to clean up a little before it comes on so Im out for now - Maybe I'll be back later maybe tommorow.

    Lataz♥Candise P


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