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Name: Candise P( Candi P)
Age: 20 years old
Date of Birth: Febuary15
Horoscope Sign: Aquarius
Motherhood: Mother of 1
Residence: South Florida via NY
I'm an 80's baby. Born February 15th ((Aquarius to the fullest)).
For those who wonder - I am NOT mixed with any other ethnicity.
Simply and beautifully African American. New York born and bread.
Now residing in South Florida. Although I'm loving the fun and sun,
NOTHING beats New York.
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"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful
beyond measure"
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Not too much to say as of right now. Im just thinking - quietly (but actively) thinking ....
My mind is my best friend and my worst enemy.
♥Mystique
"Tropical Storm Ernesto (45 mph) is swirling northwest at about 13 mph toward south Florida. After emerging over the waters of the Florida Straits this morning, Ernesto has maintained its northwest movement and is now about 135 miles south-southeast of Miami, Florida. The outer rainbands from Ernesto, which are appearing on local Key West and Miami radar, are sweeping through the Keys and approaching the southeast Florida coastline. Each squall that moves through will provide tropical downpours and occasional gusts over tropical storm force (at or greater than 40 mph)."
Just wanted to say goodnight and tell you how happy I am to finally get back in contact with my girl Chanel.
Being from NY and moving down here to FL I lost contact with a lot of people that I truley never thought I'd loose sight of (but that's another story).
Me and Nelly used to run the track team amd prolly still would if we were there. We had to leave WFHS behind for bigger and better things. We'll anyway to make a long story short her and her long time boyfriend are engaged to be married and they finally have a wedding date. And she always did say that I'd be first - HAHAHA if she only knew how far from that I was. Aside form this being a joyous occasion I now have an excuse to get to NY. Plus there's some people I miss like hell and really need to see. Paul, I wish you could have been here for so much and I wish I could have been there for so much - I miss you soooo much. I can't wait to see you. Jessica and you're beautiful family! I can't wait to see how big my Isaiah has gotten and finally get to hold your newest edition. Stacia, although you're in the dog house with me for not even trying to get in contact I still love you and you know you'll always be my girl - I can't wait to see mom and dad martinez and even Josh's stank behind lol. Snoopy - Im going to find you too, I know you're prollly doing big things (even under the rock where you're hiding lol). Not to mention the countless masses of family and other friends and associates I have there. There meaning back home. I ♥ NY.
Anyway - just a general shout to NY I miss yall sooooo much.
I had a loooong day so Im getting offline and heading to bed, if you want me you know how to reach me.
Lataz Mystique
I hate getting up early.
And so it was time for a layout change - it's a little more airy and I like that. Kind of how I've been feeling the past week. Hopefully it'll lift your spirits as well.
Someone just sent me Beyonce's new album BDay and Im listening to that as we speak. Im also taking a listen to a few new singles from Kelis, Tank, Justin Timberlake, and
I must say Justin is comming with straight FIRE for this upcomming album of his. Sexy Back is hot!
Kelis - Trilogy
Justin Timberlake Ft. T.I- My Love
Beyonce - Kitty Kat
Tank - Love Machine
Anyway, I had a pretty uneventful night - didn't go anywhere. Sat at home and tried to play scrabble with Les for a little bit but he was cheating and claiming that he couldn't play lol. After that I sat up a little bit longer; and watched National Geographic Channel for a little before I went to bed. There was a special on called "Is It Real: The LochNess Monster" I was real ammused by these people chasing after a myth. Funny. my tounge is sore as hell 'cause I had a huge frosty from Wendy's yesturday and it was sooo hard to suck out of the straw lol. That's prolly very random but oh well.
Well, Im hungry so Im going to grab some food. Somebody call me - I haven't been on the phone ALL day :( Talk to you later.
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Supposedly it's an old song but I heard it for the first time today and fell in love with it. The song is beautiful.... It's by a group called Hinder and yes it is a rock song but I like it so **sticks tounge out** lol. I told yall if it's good I listen to it. [.....] Honey why are you calling me so late It’s kinda hard to talk right now Honey why are you crying is everything okay I gotta whisper cause I can’t be too loud Well, my girls in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those words it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel It’s funny that you’re calling me tonight And yes I’ve dreamt of you too And does he know you’re talking to me Will it start a fight No I don’t think she has a clue Well my girls in the next room Sometimes I wish she was you I guess we never really moved on It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those wordsa it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel It’s really good to hear your voice saying my name It sounds so sweet Coming from the lips of an angel Hearing those words it makes me weak And I never wanna say goodbye But girl you make it hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel (And I never wanna say goodbye) But girl you make it so hard to be faithful With the lips of an angel Honey why are you calling me so late **Sigh** Anyway -- gotta get up early so Im going to bed. Nite Nite ♥ Mystique
I heard so much that I plan to comment on here today. Everything seemed to relate to the in's and outs of a relationship or the (mis)relation of males and females.
So yeah I'm at work today and one of my co-workers is telling me how her best friend is always tagging along with her and her baby's father because she doesn't have a man of her own. She went on to say how she decided to hook her up with a friend of her's that she thought her friend would be attracted to. He had the both of them meet up at my co-workers house before they went out; when he got there and laid eyes on her best friend (who happens to be black) he told them that he was sorry and had to go!?
Hmmm I thought - why would he do that, he was all game for the date from what she said. When my co-worker pulled him aside and asked him why he was trying to leave so quickly he said "I don't mess with black girls". With him being black himself she was so clueless as to why he'd say such a thing.
My Response to This: I'm so tired of people in general putting a cap on the people they will date. I mean honestly, you can't help yourself when you're attracted to someone. This guy actually told my co-worker that he would sleep with a black woman but he wouldn't get serious with them (his exact words form what she said). To me attraction is something that you can't control whether the person is purple with one arm and 5 strands of hair off of their head. Limiting yourself is something people do on their own. It has nothing to do with bad experiences or anything else. There's always the debate about why so many black men date white woman and it's been said to me more than a few times that it's because black woman are too hard to deal with, too opinionated, too strong, and too independent. Last time I checked those weren't bad qualities?! Check me if I'm wrong fellas. I would never limit myself although I have my preferences if I'm feeling a guy it really doesn't matter much to me if he's Chinese and purple. If I feel him I feel him.
Feel me?
So then yeah my lunch break roles around and I pick up Essence Magazine (with Beyonce gracing the cover) and took a look at the table of contents. ... 32 pages of the best dresses ... 12 gorgeous & easy hairstyles ...dare to live your dreams ... sexercise. Among those I see something that catches my eye that reads The Guys-Only Getaway Black Men Don't Want You to Know About. You know I'm turning to that first lol. The article is about Rio (Brazil) and how it's the number one sex-tourism industry. I started reading the article after being intrigued by the title's caption of what black men don't want me to know lol.
"Of course cheap sex with women in Third World countries has long been considered a perk for men of the industrialized word." WTH Im thinking to myself, and still thinking for that matter. Why in the world would you desire to screw (let's be real and call it what it is) some prostitute from a third world contry? What makes that so different from some chick you picked up on the corner?
There was actually 2 very recent incidents, one in which 28 black men and 40 prostitutes were caught on a "boat ride" after forgetting to pay off some important authorities and the other where 40 black men of a high end social club were caught doing the same. In case you were wondering prostitution in Brazil is legal as long as the participants are over the age of 18. The author of the artical explains that he felt like he was in a music video surrounded by woman in the club, on the streets, everywhere.
"these girls made you feel like a million dollars. They stroke the hell out of your ego. I have a 20-years-old who cooks and cleans for me and treats me like a god. I don't get that in America."
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"These woman are willing to look after and take care of their men in a way that Black women in America stopped doing after they got sucessful." WOW - lets stop here for a minute. A (male) friend just said that this is true. I disagree. I do agree with the fact that America gives females more freedoms and more leeway than any other country in the world and so us females might be more focused on making things happen for ourselves rather than focusing so much on a man mBUT in other countries the men are the rulers and the dominators and what they say ultimately goes. If you were ruled by a man I bet you'd treat them well too. If we think about back in the day in America things were the same way here now as they are presently in other countries. So really I'm not trying to here that lol. I know there are plenty women in America that treat their men like Kings!
The next article I jumped into head first was one called Relationship Rescue. I love knowing other people have problems and it's not just me lol. This issues topic was about a couple that had been together 22 years (WOW) and to keep their relationship alive and interesting they invite other people into their bedroom escapades. The question was, could a menage a trois actually ruin their relationship. Situation: 43 year old Lisa and 46 year old Darryl makde it a habit of introducing new faces into their bedrooms to keep the relationship spicy until Darryl became threatened by a new bed mate *****, that he felt Lisa was becoming too attached to. Darryl says "Lisa spends more time with ***** than with me, and that hurts. Now when ***** spends the night, I sleep in the spare bedroom." And Lisa says "It's not the first time that I've been attracted to other women, but it wasn't about sex this time. I have real feelings for *****."
Now I can't get on him because it's not like the introduction of new people into their lives was all his idea because she had a mutual part in it as well. I def'ly agree with the experts opinion in which she says for Lisa to stop having sex with both her husband and ***** until she knows what she really wants. I would have never began the things they are into now in the first place for the very same issue they're dealing with now. There's no way in hell I'm going to let some other woman come in MY bedroom and end up watching my husband/boyfriend/significant other chase after them all because of a fantasy that he or I had. There is too much risk of someone liking something too much or someone catching feelings - especially if that "extra" person comes around more than once.
Forget that.
Damn ... Lunch break is over.
After work I headed to Borders to get Zanes latest release since I was a day late on purchasing it. The book is called Carmel Flava for all you who want to read a long with me. I'm sure I'll zip through that real quick because all of her books are major page turners and I can never put them down. Next two books I'm reading will be Candy Licker by Noire and Diary of a Mistress which is a new release by author Miasha. If anyone else plans on reading any of these books let me know so we can discuss. Speaking of new releases John Legend is comming out with a new album - can't wait for that. His debuet was amazing and his voice and those talented fingers of his are something to listen to. The album is called Once Again and is due out October 3rd of this year.
I never got a real chance to tell you all about my weekend. For the most part everything was great. I had some special moments this past weekend and I'm not going to lie I haven't smiled so much in a while. 
My jaws still hurt. I went to see my future puppies again, went to the movies for the first time in a looong time, got to go to Channel Side again, hmmm.
Let's just say this - I'm a very lucky gal!
And one last tid bit on relationships ... and if this involves you you'll know - I will tell you this one more time, I AM the best you'll ever have, don't hate me 'cause you let me go. You've given me another reason to know how much I should be in love with myself. You showed me more things I do want in a man and some things I hate in a man and I would never in a million years regret a thing. I take this as a lesson learned and there is no bad blood on my side. You'll always have a friend in me reguardless to whether or not you plan on to stay in touch or whatever the case may be.
...Oh and you're wrong - there are people who love me and I WILL be perfect for someone.
Thank you!
Well I know I gave yall more than a little something to read but I had a lot to talk about today lol. I'll give yall a break for a few hours **hehe**
♥ Mystique
You ever meet the closest thing to perfect and then realize that you couldn't have it? I have and his middle name is taken ...
Tangles of lies. although this isn't traditional I swear to you it's truley uncoditional; it shall be everlasting - now, forever and in the passing.
A rain of complications, and question. Call me weak but Im not leaving. 'Cause you are my misery, my jealousy, my joy and my inspiration.
Keeping our love secret has seen it's brighter days. But our smiles still haven't faded.
Even though this love was never promised or planned for I still feel like I can't grasp it if I wanted it: that hurts more than ever now more than before.
N ever ending fantastical love that is slowly going nowhere. I know we're not one but our imperfectionate mess seems so perfect.
I want to be steadfast, stationed and equipped to obey everything you saythese words I hope you hear.Im happy, Im sad, I feel new, I feel old, Im up and Im down.
In the past few months I feel like I've been high and low but I know I've never reached as low as I could be so I know although there is rain there is always light and I got through everything.
Lord Jesus, help me humble in humility
I’ve stumbled literallysomething happened spiritually
and only some know it shows physically
typically I don’t out my doubts but,
day is about turn into night
Something just isn't right without you in my life.
I’m hoping I might learn my errors
Because at times my mind is tossed in the turbulence of the earth’s events
I repent for the sins I’ve recompensed with your body because in the end my body really belongs to you.
I’ve wrestled with the devil and tried to level, even after
being confused by your message I ended up with a bunch of question.
I want to be in your presence, not just near it I want to hear your voice, because I never heard you like I was supposed to
Jesus, in your name I pray…….
And so it's said that everything happens for a reason.
I know it's truley impossible for me to understand what, where, who and why everything happens but I still try.
Things and people try and make me weak but I WILL stay strong. NOTHING will break me.
♥Mystique
"Imagine ME being free, trusting you totally letting go of the past and that I have another chance"
Off to get ready for work! YaY - sike.
Ill be at work most of the day so don't miss me too much lol.
Hopefully I'll come home with a new phone to play with all night long.
I def'ly have somethings on my heart and head that I'd like to share so Ill blog it up later on.
♥Mystique
Okay so I had a pretty intersting weekend. For the most part - I had a good time and was more than elated, I couldn't keep a smile of my face.
Nothing will get inbetween what I want. And I mean that with all my heart.
I'm watching Bridezillas and checking email and whatnot. Im kind of at a loss for the words I want to say. So I think I'll just leave those for tommorow sometime.
But anyway ....
Thanks to goat mouth (you know who you are) I have 2 mosquito bites - dangit lol. I haven't had one mosquito bite since I've been in Florida and now I have 2 at the very same time. Thanks a lot lol.
Im getting my phone tommorow - real excited about that! I'll be poor another week, oh well.
♥ Mystique
Road Trip!!!! I'll be heading to Orlando this weekend! YAY!!
So since I wont be home I wont be blogging. I'm just going to enjoy my time out; Myspace and Blogger free. Ill come back with pics and plenty to talk about I'm sure. I worked early today so Im sooo sleepy plus the fact I just ate *hehe*
Im over here downloading music getting ready to clean up the kitchen, take a shower and hop my booty in the bed early. *yawn*.
I know it's short but Im out.
♥ Mystique
Goodmorning World. YAY I'll be home early today so thats when you'll get a piece of my world. Until then ... Smoochez!
♥Mystique
The world just isn't ready!
♥ Mystique
Yeah so I thought I had to work this morning but I don't work till later so oh well. Im sleepy so I think Im going to take me a little nappy nap. I didn't get too much sleep last night - prolly only 5 hours or so.
Be back later!
Mystqiue
Damn this is going to be my third time blogging today.
I wish I could say everything I feel here on this blog 'cause lord knows that I'd spill my guts . There's not too many people I could tell everything, and I do mean everything. My BFF from NY abandoned me (for real) I haven't spoken to her in ions 
. At least I know she's alive. My other bestest is busy raising her (beautiful) family and of course she's not going to have as much time as she usually would; but that's understandable. Im happy for her 'cause I know she's happy! I can't wait till she gets married cause Im def'ly going to be all up in the planning of everything *hehe*
Other than that I've been thinking hella hard about transfering to UCF (University of Central Florida) starting the Spring of 07' semester. I'm pretty sure that Im going to keep my same major (Multimedia Journalism) and if I decide to change I do have time. Im pretty sure I could save enough for next semester and I def'ly want to go to school in the summer time to catch up on the classes that I could ahve been taking this semester. It's a matter of me focusing and staying on track in the next semester. No fooling around and I think I got this. I know I can do it so Im just going to do like I do and get it done! Some of my family members think that bouncing form school to school isn't "good" but guess what - Im doing what I think is best for myself and no one else, 'cause in the end they'll be no one else to pay for what I've done but me so ... 
to all the negativity. I plan to do me and get exactly when I want to be the best way I can.
I know this much - so much in this world just needs to be free lol. School, housing, food ... I'd be straight with that 
. Dang, I need to be rich or maybe win the lottery! Life would be so much easier I'd get a car, 2 puppies and a bangin' ass townhouse, go to school and have some fun!!!
I just finished reading a friend of mines blog and my response had to be cut short because if I had continued on he would have been there forever reading it and my response would have been longer than the actual post. The post was about efficiant ways to pull decent minded women. He brought up some valid points and from a males prospective it actually surprised me! The one thing he said that still has me trippin' is this ...
"deep down inside is crying cause all he can get is bitches...and hoes...and it intesifies is crime rate because of this. All the violence and profanity in music... tv...streets is just a cry for help from the lack of decent minded females in the lives of men"
Damn, who would have known. All this voilence that the media blames on TV and Rap music could be stopped if there were more level headed, decent minded females for the guys to rap to lol. He made some other points which I more than agreed with.
"some odd reason doods think you most hunt the female down like a wild animal to get with her" Hell no you don't have to run behind me to let me know you're interested. There's a difference between persistance and stalker tendencies lol. "following them serveral blocks while asking them your premade list of random "ingorant ass" questions" All the questions about where my man is, and why I should come home, and telling me how you just want to be my friend with you is rediculous. Riddle me with something I haven't heard before. This is the main reason most guys get mad when you igg them because they think we're being stank when really it's that you and 50 other dudes just asked me the same dumb questions. Please fellas, come up with something else. Trip over some uniqueness or something."pulling your car over on the sidewalk infront of them to prevent there escape and ensure your game is heard" Now here's where it gets rediculus. I've had guys literally trip over their own 2 feet in hot pursuit of trying to get my attention.
All you're going to get is laughed at lol. The guy that pays me no attention is usually the guy that makes me crazy. As backwards as this may sound I don't want all of your attention. Don't make me out to be the only thing you see. "a decent minded female...doesnt think dope money is..."cute"...she dosent want someone that owns a street pharmacy...she wants someone that owns CVS."You aint lying. You're not going to make me a drug dealers wife. HELL NO. I want a man who's street smart and book smart! A corporate hustler if you will.
I love good blogs - there should be more in this world lol.
Lataz ♥Mystique
So yeah Myspace has proven to be so many things for me.
#1: A source of entertainment for me and the millions of other users all over the world.
#2: A way to find all those people I had contact with that I might have lost in my move.
and what I plan to talk about today,
#3: Myspace:A place for cheaters!!
Honestly, people need to be up on there game these days. For real if you're going to look for a late night creap or someone to hold your attention while homeboy/homegirl isn't giving you what you need then the internet isn't really a good place for you to try and do it. You'll always be found out! ALWAYS.
So my story begins on www.Facebook.com, a young gentleman who's name I will not disclose contacted me saying he was new to my school and blah blah blah all that good nonsense. So anyway being the friendly person I am, I wrote him back and forth once or twice and left it at that. A little while later I guess he realized that I have a link to my Myspace page on my profile and decided to visit it. He requested me as a friend and we didn't really talk too much after that.
About a week ago he tried to make contact with me again. In doing so he let me know that he would be in my area sometime soon and that he wanted to see me. Of course he's black, well educated, working, living on his own, and guess what ladies and gentleman ... NO GIRLFIRNED, NO WIFE, NO KIDS, NOTHING!!?!?!
Hmmmmm I thought.
So anyway, let's get back to the point. Today I logged into Myspace to check for any messages or comments I might have gotten while I was fast asleep and I had a friend request from a young lady in Florida. I get friend requests from females but not that often so I always look at them to see who it is and if I might know them or not. When I clicked on it I noticed a farmilar face in photoslide shows and in her profile pics and hell, everywhere else lol. It was dude from facebook.
Was I shocked...
Nope. It's almost expected these days. But damn how obvious could you be?!
It's soooo easy to see your significant others friends, comments he/she posted, comments they recieved everything. Why do your bad online? You know it's going to get out and 95% faster than if you did your business out in the streets.
No good lol. Did give me a good laugh though. I've seen so many people get caught out there with myspace it's not even funny. So gals and guys, Judge Mabeline (of divorce court) says "dig deep before you leap" and I damn sure think that Myspace should be a great tool for that as well as everything else.
Like someone once said to me ... It's 2006 lets see some ID, an HIV test, and a credit report lol.
Lataz ♥ Mystique
From a Myspace survey I recieved
Rules: You've been tagged. You need to reply to sender with 6 weird habits/things about yourself.
1. When I was younger rather than watching cute Disney movies I watched Edward Sissor hands over and over again.
2. I hate getting my feet wet in the kitchen or bathroom.
3. I've eaten frog, sqiud, and aligator.
4. I started walking at the age of 6 months.
5. Im obsessed with weddings.
6. I hate cheese
Every description and compliment ever told to a women
combined together equals your beauty
but,
"I gotta take this slow"
If God created earth in seven days and everything in it
he used six sculpting you
but,
"You see, we've been through so much"
Being with you makes me happier than I've ever been
but,
"this is so hard for me"
Making love to you isn't just an action with me and you it's
beautiful
but,
"Im so comfortable where I am"
When we kiss it's like our souls intermingle
but,
"I dont want to loose sight of everything else Im trying to do"
I want to do everything in my will to make you happy
but,
"I don't know if I should really get into this all over again"
Addicted to your love like it’s a one of a kind drug
but
"The decision has to be made and I have to be fair"
Your my best friend and you'll always have a piece of my heart
but,
"I love her"
I was in a poetic kind of mood *hehe*
♥ Mystique
I will continue to change my layout until I am 100%ly satisfied with it's look and feel. Im just a perfectionist when it comes to some things.
My horoscope has been on the money this week! Things are changing and are comming into focus. I feel so GOOD!
Goodnight 'cause Im sleepy. *Yawn
♥Mystique
Im on cloud 9 .... Im so in ♥
Damn I just wrote a whole blog and the power cut off :(
.Oh well.
I had a good day today with work and everything. I went to the mall with my mom and cousin and ran into the bargain of a century. Giess Marciano was having a sale and I was all up in it lol. I found 3 shirts that I've been looking at for the longest but refused to spend that much on and they were all on sale for a lot cheaper. I bought 2. One in which I'll def'ly be wearing if I go out with tose chicas tommorow. It's soooo cute I can't wait to have somewhere to wear the other one!!
Oh my I think I've found my wedding song *hehe* it's sooo beautiful. I heard it today in the car and could only think of one person. *winks*
These is a piece of it ...
Just like a star across my sky,
just like an angel off the page,
you have appeared to my life,
feel like I'll never be the same,
just like a song in my heart,
just like oil on my hands,
Oh.. I do love you,
You've got this look i can't describe,
you make me feel like I'm alive,
when everything else is a fade,
without a doubt you're on my side,
heaven has been away too long,
can't find the words to write this song,
Oh... your love...The song is called Like a Star by Corrine Bailey Rae. Her voice is amazing! She's sucha breath of fresh air. Although Goapele has won me over and become a top favorite she's up there. If you don't have either album please go get them. Corrine Baliey Rae's is a self titled debuet and Goapele is on her second album and one is tittled Closer the other Change It All.
Speaking of music I heard Letoya Luckets new single "She Don't" and Im feeling that too. Homegirl said "when yyou're in love you look over the obvious!" Can I get an Amen!? Goodness am I feeling her on that! I think I might give her album a good listening to.
Oh I almost forgot **important message** ....
To whom it may concern,
I'll tell you one last time and then I let go;
I pride myslef in knowing that I'm the best thing you'll ever have and you let me slip away. The song is simply amazing.
Lataz♥Mystique
This is better - looks more how I feel.
And it's true, the passion NEVER dies!
I just made brownies, yummy Im going to stuff my face. I didn't eat much today so I deserve it.!!
Working again tommorow and the girls are trying to drag me out to club Fuel for a last night out for Darlene since she's leaving us but I really don't want to go to that club of all club. I'm a lounge type of lady. Im not trying to get all cute to have someone spill a drink on me, step on my feet, grab my ass, and all that non sense. What do they say: grown and sexy - I'd so much rather that.
Okay Im going to end my blog with this. All I have to say is why can homeboi dutty wine better than me?!
....CRAZY....
♥Mystique
Boy, for not doing too much I swear it feels like such a long day lol. I went and paid my tuition which thoroughly made me feel horrible lol. Aside from that I had off work so I've been chillin' and writing and whatnot.
So yeah Im working on making this blog a little more personal. It'll prolly be changing left and right because I a lot of things that are up are just temporary because I didn't want it to look absolutely disgusting. I might completely change the colors 'cause it's kind of dark for my taste right now...Im a little happier than blacks and greys. Im more pink and orange right now.
I also added Improvise to the music section here for all of you that haven't heard my inspiration!
Well talk soon
♥Mystique
There's a mystery man in my life.
To think he started as a dream.
I've never been so In love before! He consumes all of my thoughts. I think and obsess over him day after day. He was my world.
91 days the mystery should be lifted but instead the heartbreak will be re(re)placed. Will anyone else recognize this day or will it be just me? Does anyone know how great this day could have been?
He looks so farmiliar, like a face I know so well. The dimples, chocolatey skin, and a beautiful smile.
He was mine and no one could come between that ...
I thought.
He is my shattered dream and yet he's become the birth of so many more dreams!
My mystery man is a reminder of all good in life and all the good that WILL come to us. I wont cry over my mystery man any longer. Just smile and wait for him to visit me once again.
My mystery man
a begining with no end.
♥Mystique
"Your tiny footprints will forever be across my heart"
**Yawn** I just got in from work too long ago and I was welcomed home to picture comments and blog comments and messages galor! Not too much good stuff but enough to make me happy so thanks to whoever show'd love. Im literally falling asleep watching Dr.Phil, so I think Im going to take a little nap.
Ill be back in a little while!!
♥Mystique
Boy, I shouldn't have stayed up so late.
But Im glad I did!!
Grrrr I hate early mornings
Off to work .....
♥
Mystique
So I missed my family reunion this year due to some interesting circumastances. I thought about going alone but then I changed my mind - so I guess thats my bad. Everyone said it went well aside from a little drama here and there but you know how that goes.
So now that the family reunion in Maryland is over they've thrown it to the people in FL to get it going for 2008. Guess what .... the only family of mine in FL is me and my immediate family - greeeaatttt lol. Everyone wants to do a cruise which I think is great beging that I wanted to go on one anyway.
My dilemma lies here....
I wonder if I should go off and do my thing before the family reunion being that that wouldn't be until 2008 anyway?! I think so. Anyone wanna go???
I got all excited about it after my little excursion to Channelside today and remembering how much fun I had when I went last time.
The prices are a lot cheaper than I thought since it's months in advance. A 5 day western carribean cruise hitting the islands of: Grand Cayman, Cayman Islands ; Ocho Rios, Jamaica leaving from Miami is only (starting at) $509 per person. Not bad huh!? The highest prices are in August(2007) at $529. In April it's $459!! Im all gung ho! Im ready to go cruising ....
Yall game?!
♥Mystique
As promised today I went to the zoo and took tons of pictures. It was a bunch of fun for an animal lover like myself.
I woke up and prepared myself for the day and get ready to get up and out. I headed to the zoo first. It was hot as hell but I figured I'd be alright. Luckily it didn't rain until later on in the day when I was safe indoors.
It wasn't croweded at all and that's always a good thing. There was just families and children running around screaming for mommy and daddy to look at this animal and look at that animal lol. Only thing was that it was so hot that most of the animals weren't very active - I don't blame them. My favorite exhibits were the Meerkats (they were so cute), the Rhinos (outragiously huge), the Giraffe (I got to feed and pet). They had a new manatee exhibit that was pretty cool 'cause I got to see all of the ingured ones and how they planned to rehabilitate them. 
Some of my more amusing moments in the zoo were when I got to see two tortoses getting it on all out in public for everyone to see and when I spotted a sign that read "Do Not Feed or Molest the Gators"
It was overall a nice trip - next animal orriented trip will be the wild cat rescue where they house all the BIG cats (lions, cougars, jaguars, and such)that were rescued from different places over the US.
After leaving the zoo I took a ride down to Channelside to watch the cruise ship leave the docks and grab a bite to eat. I've been on one cruise and I loved every second of it! I love the water and I was completely surrounded by it. The cruise I went on was to the Bahamas and I'd love to go again and stay longer. I think I'll look into that today. Start saving and take myself on a nice little trip.
**Runs off to look at prices**
There was a few different places to eat but I decided to stay safe and go with something I have had before. 
.I ended up going to Benningans for lunch and ate (guess) chicken (as usual)! Yummy. As soon as I sat down the ship started to pull away from port and it started to pour down rain 
. I was glad to be seated with a drink in hand before it started to rain 'cause I would have been really upset if I got caught in it outside. After I ate I walked around a littel bit more people watching and looking at things I couldn't afford lol.
Ahhhh today was another great day - there's some hours before I go to sleep and I will try my best to make sure no one ruins another perfect day!!
||Randomness for the day||
I changed my profile music back to Kanye West's Improvise to keep me encouraged to continue my book!
My phone rang one time today to this very minute and it's already 9:19pm 
wtf's up with that?!
Message to Jahdal: keep on loving my blog :)
♥ Mystique
I went to the beach today. Seriously it draned every bit of energy from me. It was hot as hell even under my umbrella. I love the beach though so it was okay. The water was soooo warm it was probably like 75/80 degrees and I was loving it! Im sitting here catching up on the real wor;d episodes I missed and chowing down on the spegghetti I made for dinner (yummy).
Tommorow is my zoo trip and Im sooo excited. I feel like a kid at camp waiting for a field trip. Im going to take as many pics as possible.
Hey I'll be right back have to take care of some things.
Happy Birthday to all the mighty Leos in my world.
Paul || David || Unc Lance
♥ Always,
Mystique
"You gotta fight for love ... can you make a fist?"
We're going to go back ....
.... Waaaayyyy back.
Back into time.
I was such a boy lol. I swore I was Left Eye, Queen Latifa or someone lol. This is nothing but a classic - don't hate on my moves ;)
Guess my brother was tired of my singing and he showed so by covering his ears and screaming for mommy lol - he didn't know good stuff when he heard it lol.
.Goodnight||Goodtimes.
Mystique
So Im planning a trip to the zoo this weekend. I have off work and Im looking to do something fun!!! I absolutely adore all animals and I haven't been to the zoo since I've been down in Florida. I also plan to take trillions of pictures. 
I'm going to go by myself so no one will get frustrated at me stopping by each exhibit to snap pictures. I really can't wait - hopefully it wont rain and my plans wont get ruined 'cause I wanted to hit the beach too. This time I'm going to bring an umbrella 'cause messing around with this FL sun is no joke. Last time I was out on the beach I came home sun burnt and crispy as Popeyes chicken lol.
Wowee.
My little brother and sister started their first day of high school today. Freaking incredible. They are growing up soooo fast. It's tripping me out 'cause in 4 years they'll be off to college - wtf lol. My brother aspires to be a pilot (not in the military lol)he just returned from ERAU (Embry Riddle Aeronoticle University in his second summer lesson there in which he flew for the second time. And my baby sister wants to be a coreographer. No lie she can watch a music video one time and have the moves down like she came up with them herself. It's nuts. They both will go very far in life and I can already see that now!
Anyway I had another normal day at work today - nothing ghetto fabulous happened so that's always good.
I've been having some strange dreams lately. I had this wild ass dream last night that my mom was pregnant and she had a little girl. It was strange because when I woke up I thought it was real and went looking for my baby sister panicking when I could find her. I was redirected to the bed and knocked back out lol. The night before that I had a dream that my cousin T was beating the hell out of me for what reason I cannot remember but it was very dark and he just kept hitting me. I was all battered and bruised and he wouldn't stop. Me fighting for my life in my dream made for a restless night and I woke up pretty tired.
Blah Blah Blah.... On to more important things.
Im reading my horoscope and responding to Myspace messages. My horoscope is short but interesting [. You might not be top priority in someone else's life right now -- be patient. Have you been feeling like a friend or family member has been neglecting you lately? This may be due to their current work or romantic problems, so be patient with them. Understand that you might not be their top priority right now. Check in with them today by sending a cheerful email and letting them know you're there if (and when) they need you. Soon enough, they will be willing to buck up and get back into the swing of life -- and back in sync with you .] Goodness. Where do they get this stuff lol?! I love it 'cause it can be more than true sometimes.
I've been thinking about getting another tattoo. I don't know of what and I don't know where 'cause as far as Im concerned the only place I would consider is taken lol. I want something meaningful, unique and something small. Any suggestions?! The first and only one I have hurt like hell but I got through it so it's cool. I just occupied my thoughts on other things aside from the pain.
" accomplishing things in life that are said to be impossible"
♥Always,
Mystique
PS-I have a late night treat for you all but it's not done uploading so when It does Ill post it up separately!!
Hey guess what ... I have magical powers. I just realized that I've always had the power to make men dissappear with the blink of an eye lol. I'm a man slayer hahahahaha (evil laugh). It's incredible lol.
Today I was contacted by yet another graphic design company in hopes of hiring me to do some free lance work for them. Yippy! This is like the third company in 2 weeks. I didn't even think I was that good lol. That would def'ly get me some extra money that is well needed. I do plan on working full and going to school so extra money for something that I consider to be a hobby is a plus!!
Well Im off to do some things so Ill write later on.
♥Mystique
Sorry no entry tonight - I had a pretty awesome day until someone had to go and piss me off. I hate when people start things and don't finish them that's really bothersome.
Anyway - will talk tommorow.
-Mystique
Happy first of the month everyone!!
[1.]Longest relationship:
...
[2.]Shortest relationship:
I don't know lol
[3.]How many people have you broken up with?
One.
[4.]How many times have you truly been in love?
I think I've been spelling love wrong all this time. I finally got it right this time.
[5.]How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you?Who wouldn't love me lol?
[6.]Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with?Thought so.
[7.]Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt?
I do Now.
[8.]Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry?
Yes.
[9.]Have you ever cried over a boyfriend or girlfriend?Yes.
[10.]Are you happy being single or in relationships?
Im very happy right now.
[11.]Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Now what do you consider cheating lol.
[12.]Have you ever been cheated on?
I couln't even count how many times.
[13.]What is the most important PART of being in a relationship?Communication - without that a relationship cannot exist.
[14.]What is the worst part of being in a relationship?
The inevitable issues and arguments.
[15.]Worst relationship?
Why talk about it - it wont change a thing.
[16.]Have you ever had your heart broken?
If you call ripped out squashed, thrown on the floor and stepped on a few times with muddy boots broken then yeah it's been broken.
[17.]Do you talk to any of your exes?
Yes I do.
[18.]If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you?
Not at all.
[19.]Do you think any of your exes feel the same way?
I think they feel opposite.
[20.]What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend?
Understanding, funny, open minded, smooth, street smart and book smart, family oriented ... wait im not telling anymore lol.
[21.]Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yes I do.
[22.]Have you dated people who were not good to you?
Yes.
[23.]Have you been in an abusive relationship?
Yes.
[24.]Name your most memorable ex if you have had 1:
Hmmmm I wouldn't give any the pleasure lol. Im so evil.
[25.]Have you dated someone older then you?
Always.
[26.]Younger?
No.
[27.]What is one thing that all of your exes had in common?Im going to have to tkae from the words of Rhiannon and say they weren't good enough. I deserve the best - step your game up boys!!!
[28.]Say, who are the top two most attractive ex's that you have?I might have been attracted to them one way or another when I was with them but they always seem to do something that makes me look at them differently. So I can say none of them are attractive to me anymore.
[29.]Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend?One too many times.
[30.]When is the last time that you were in a relationship?
Im always in a relationship lol.
[31.]Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Well, in some instances.
[32.]Believe in love at first sight?
Yes I def'ly do.
[33.]Ever dated two people at once?
Not that I can recall.
[34.]Ever been given a promise ring?
I've been promised a promise ring.
[35.]Ever been given an Engagement ring?
Hmpf.
[36.]Do you want to get married?
I will get married!
[37.]Do you have something to say to any of your exes?
Look what you lost bitches!!
[38.]Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend?
More times than one can imagine lmao.
[38.]Ever liked someone else's boyfriend or girlfriend?
Yes.
[39.]Do you believe in true love?
Absolutely.
[40.]Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds?
It hurts worst than it sounds.
Ahhh what fun!!!
Ttyl
♥Mystique