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Name: Candise P( Candi P)
Age: 20 years old
Date of Birth: Febuary15
Horoscope Sign: Aquarius
Motherhood: Mother of 1
Residence: South Florida via NY
I'm an 80's baby. Born February 15th ((Aquarius to the fullest)).
For those who wonder - I am NOT mixed with any other ethnicity.
Simply and beautifully African American. New York born and bread.
Now residing in South Florida. Although I'm loving the fun and sun,
NOTHING beats New York.
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So I'm sitting here watching perfect proposal (which Im very excited to see 'cause I didn't even know it still came on.) I'm thinking about all the change of plans lately. Going from thinking about going to UCf to deciding that Im just going to go back to FAU. Even down to my NY trip. I was and still am amped about going back but the more and more I look at it - it's realy going to be too expensive for us to go right now so we were looking for more options. We are in Florida so it'll be very easy for us to get over to the islands. We have 4 ports here in FL and so we're right back at the idea of going on a cruise. [just about] Everything is included in the price per person when you cruise so it'll be easier and cheaper than getting a hotel (for however long we decide to stay), renting vehicles, food, and all that good stuff. Food, most drinks, and most activities are all included in the price per person and plus we don't have to fly to get to any of the ports like most people out of state do. Of all the 4 ports the farthest one is 4 hours away from us and the closest is about 30-45 minutes so it's no big deal.
I'm super dooper excited to go so hopefully everything falls through, goes smoothly and as planned.
So it's a Myspace day - time to update the page. I added a new slideshow and Im working on adding more text. I really want to change the layout but I've been told I need to keep it up for a while longer + I have no idea what I want in a new one. Any suggestions?
I forgot to add some pics from bathing my kitten Erie so I'll do that later when I get off of work. I have tommorow off so I can treat myself and stay up a little late lol.
Well, off to work for me. I hope they don't continue to stiff me with these stripper hours any longer lol.
Talk to yall laterz ♥Mystique
Yeah yeah ... I know it's been a minute. Maybe even a minute and a half BUT I have my reasons as always. I'm sleepy and haven't been doing anything but going to work and going to school. Oh, throw a whole lot of thinking about moving in the mix 'cause I've been doing a whole crap load of that.
I'm so ready to go now. My heart is there and Im ready to go pick up where I left off. It's going to be great - hard or not I'm ready for it. What ever has to be sacrificed will.
Aside from that - Im pretty dangone (ahaha) tired right about now. I think I'm going to get a drink and a little snack and lay down for the night; no TV no comp no nothing. Trying to get in that 8 hours so I'm all fresh and rested for tommorow. It's going to be another late night but I gotta do what I gotta do - right!?
Well I'm out but not before a sing along.
Sing along with me folks lol ....
Stank you ...... Smelly much
Can you tell I'm in an awesome mood?!
♥Mystique
"I moved him and he's a mountain of a man"
Today before heading to class I picked up one of those papers full of events and such going on around the downtown area and in looking through it I found the perfect event to go to. Of course I would have imagined that it would be over the weekend but boy do people love throwing glitches in my matrix!?
Great.
The damn concert is on a Monday!? WTH. I have class and my most wonderful company will def'ly be gone by that time. We have lives you know. **blah**. I was so excited about the concert because it was like a jazz/soul/spoken word type event. The tickets are pretty cheap too. The Roots, Mari Ben-Ari and Jean Grae. Jean Grae is a talented spoken word lyricist that caught my ear on a neo-soul mix tape like 2 months back. He work is hot. You know - I think I'll add some Jean Grae to the play list just because.
Okay so yeah I'm really upset that this concert is on a Monday but life goes on. I'll be alright, but I'm still going to see if we can go. You never know.
Mmmmmm I'm thinking Panera Bread (my new morning addiction) for breakfast tommorow morning before work. Now I'm not one for breakfast or anything especially because I'm just not a morning person but their bagels are the closest to NY bagels that I've had yet and plus I'm up so damn early now that if I don't eat in the morning by lunch time I'm super starving. So I've indulged in a bagel and hot chocolate has been breakfast for the past few mornings.
In the midst of working and such I'm still working on this New York trip, even though my switch of a decision on my place of residence has shifted (and will most likely cost me more than I anticipated). We're looking for a nice hotel in Manhattan, that's not too costly (if any exist). I found a great one right across from Central park and the Museum of Natural History but the price dramatically goes up when you get a private bathroom. Crazy huh?! It'll be cold and so I'm going to have to get another pair of timbs since the NY chill doesn't play. I have a bunch of sweaters, jackets, and most importantly my snorkle so other than the boots I should be alright.
I'm doing a bunch of babbling today huh. Oh well, you know you love it and that's why you're still reading lol.
So yeah ...
It's been decided and finalized that X-Mas is going to be at my parents house this year, as it was last year but so much more family will be down this year. Now that my grandparents are moving around the corner they'll def'ly be here along with 3 of my 4 aunts, my grandparents on my mothers side, all of my 3 uncles, my god parents, my second daddy, and a bunch of cousins. Who knows who else will make it down. There's got to be over 30 people on the list as of now and that's just including family. Not to mention neighbors, and friends.
Okay early morning, and def'ly a long night ahead so I need to hop in the bed. Talk to you guys laterz.
♥Mystique
[PS]I'm working on a new layout for my myspace profile. I need something a bit more permanent than the one I have now. It's just not good enough lol. Any suggestions?!
Last night was pretty uneventful didn't do much at all but clean. It was raining and that had em even more in the mood to sweep, scrub, and wash everything I saw lol. Blame it on the rain. I also took everything out of my closet and put it back, re folding and ironing whatever I took out. It looks a lot better. All the shoes, purses, jeans, shirts - everything.
I was surprised when I came across my graduation gown and a bridesmaid dress from my Aunts wedding. When I tried the dress (size 2)on it wouldn't even come up past my thighs...dang. Guess my "plan" really is working **hehe** gaining that weight in all the right places. Go me, go me lol.
Yeah so I'm once again thinking about going back down to Boca rather than to Orlando. I can honestly say my heart is there (more expensive or not. I wish I knew exactly what to do. :(
I'm going to do my best to make a rational decision that is bound to make me happy after all is said and done, 'cause that's all that's important at the end of the day. We'll see as that thought evolves into an actual decision.
On a lighter note.
I sent in my information for a casting call for a Gatoraide commercial shoot with Dwayne Wade in Miami. Hopefully that will fall through 'cause I damn sure need the money let alone the exposure. And D Wade .yummy. lol. Let me stop before I get into trouble lol. I sent the memo to Franie so maybe she'll want to get down on it with me if it seems prevailing!?! The shoot is early next month so I'll keep you all posted on that.
Anyway the season premiere of Americas Next Top Model Cycle 6 just started and oh how delightful it is to watch it again. The way work looks lately I'll be able to watch it every week like I want to. I can already see who the problem child will be and I also have my fav's too. 
Anchal, Christian, and Eugena are my top three at this early stage in the game. We'll see how it turns out. I wont try my luck and try to guess for the fourth season in a row who will win this season - I'll let it rock for a little bit.
I guess I'll be buying Vanished and Prison Break because after the first episode classes started and I got screwed (continuously forgetting to set the DVR to record for me).
YaY - I have tommorow off!! First day in a week. I've been working my behind off. It's all good though 'cause I know for a fact it will pay off in the end. And I'm looking forward to that pay off more than anything else. I guess I really shouldn't say it's my day off because I have class at 7pm. I like this class though. Intro to Religion **dork**. I'm learning a lot. Everyone should have to take the class. Ignorance isn't an excuse and, the more you can identify and understand others - the smoother situations go. The U.S should try to do that more.
Plenty of pics comming for this upcomming weekend so you all look out for them!!
Anyway - enough blabbing for the night. Im sleepy.
♥Mystique
When I think of abortion reguardless of what kind of abortion it may be (cause there are several kinds) I think of one kind. Partial birth abortion. Dilation and Extraction or D&E is in my opinion the worst form there is; it is performed in the 4th trimester through the 8th month of pregnancy. During a D&E abortion, the woman's cervix is dilated using laminaria Im not going to lie - this tripped me out. Especially the part about the withdraw method. Reason being, usually the woman is forgotten about in sexual matters.Attn::If you can't handle opinions stop here. I have to come real with it because this is a REAL topic and things like this go on every day. Warning: There are images within this post that are very graphic!
So yeaturday I got a heads up on this article that was in the paper (The Miami Herald 9/16/2006) about a woman who gave birth in a Hialeah abortion clinic while trying to complete her abortion process (she had been there the prior day to ingest the medication to begin dialation). She didn't feel well when she went into the clinic and as she sat in the prep room waiting for a doctor to come and finish the
As she sat and waited for the doctore (who wasn't even in the building at the time) she started having severe stomach pains which resulted in her giving birth in the room alone. When a nurse came inside they immediatedly ushered the baby away and placed it inside a . The girl who did not disclose her name said she saw the baby gasping for air after it delivered and taken away.
The young woman went into the clinic looking to get an abortion. Being 22 weeks pregnant she was 4 weeks from reaching the maximum amount of weeks prenant before an abortion is legal.
Let me educate yall real quick [for those who dont know already] ...
For those of you who aren't doing the math that is about 5 and a half months pregnant. By this time (22 weeks) babies sleep in the uterus, and have some periods of intense activity in-between.The baby now shows an extremely rapid brain growth. The ovaries of female fetuses contain primitive egg cells, all of the eggs a woman will have for her entire life. The uterus of female fetuses is also fully formed. The baby now looks like a miniature newborn, weighing in at aound 10.9 inches and almost 1 pound. His or her skin appears wrinkled until she gains enough weight to fill it out, and the fine hair (lanugo) that covers his/her head and body is now visible. His/her lips are becoming more distinct, and the first signs of teeth are appearing as buds beneath her gum line. His/her eyes are developed, though the iris (the colored part of the eye) still lacks pigment. Eyelids and eyebrows are in place, and her pancreas, essential for hormone production, is developing steadily. Keep in mind this is only at 22 weeks. 24 weeks is the cut off for abortion and at this time a baby is growing steadily, more than a pound since the 22nd week. Since he/she's almost a foot long, that makes a pretty lean figure, but her body is filling out proportionally and he'll/she'll soon put on more baby fat. The baby's skin is thin, translucent, and wrinkled still, his/her brain is growing rapidly, and his/her taste buds are developing. His/Her lungs are developing "branches" of the respiratory "tree" and cells that produce surfactant, a substance that helps the air sacs inflate easily.
(seaweed) and dilator rods. Forceps are inserted which are used to tear the child apart, limb by limb. Then the spine and skull are crushed and removed. Next the abortionist uses a curette, a scooped shaped surgical instrument, to scrape the walls of the uterus. He then reassembles the child to assure that no part of her is left inside the woman. Although they've outlawed things like this I know they still go on, even here in America. I could not imagine for one second going to a clinic only to have my child literally broken to pieces inside of me and taken out of me piece by piece and continue to live with myself.
If you know me you know that my views on abortion are very strong. I am super PRO LIFE. There is no reason an innocent life should be sacrificed for anyone's mistakes.
Please read the actual articel for all the specs on the case.
Miami Herald Article Link
I thought this a good entry to give opinion about my ever changing views on birth control as well. I never knew this to be such a controversial topic until very recently.
I have even thought about birth control in all it's many forms to be a form of abortion. I have and am on the pill and in thinking about it are we interferring with God's plans or just saving ourselves from unwanted complication and struggle? What if God wanted for some of us to deal with the struggle, are we falling out of his path for us?"Artificially interfering with natural conception is not part of the process of "free will", it is a rejection of God -- the Author of Life -- as the center of the marriage covenant."
Being the inquizative individual that I am I wanted to know more about this issue so I began looking around on forums and other informational sites for more information. In looking further into different religions views on BC.
Catholic:
I was reading a Catholic family planning and religion site and it listed the communities views on topics such as sex within marriage, sex before marriage, abortion, and BC. Sex in the Catholic religion is for procreation purposes only and so to them preventing conception is sin. "Barrier methods of BC, such as the condom and the cervical cap, along with hormonal contraceptives, like the birth control pill and Depo-Provera, are thought to interfere with the act of conception. Specifically, they prevent the egg from being fertilized by a sperm and in some cases may inhibit a pregnancy further by preventing the implantation of an egg. To Catholics, purposely stopping the joining of an egg and sperm is thought to be a sin, therefore these forms of BC are not accepted." Wow. Even a condom (which is in no way shape or form a medication or something that alters chemical balances in your body) is considered not acceptable. After this is said many questions pop up.
Q1. How are you supposed to space out your children (if desired) and should you even try being that also would be interferring with God's will?
A1. This site refers to something called NFP or Natural Family Planning which in essence is is an umbrella term for various forms of birth control that do not involve any hormones or physical barriers to prevent pregnancy, but instead rely on periods of abstinence during a woman’s menstrual cycle.
Q2. What are some forms of natural family planning and how do they work without interferring with the act of conception?
A2. Some popular forms of natural family planning are the rhythm method, basil body temperature charting, and the the standard days method. In order to do something like this and make it work you must be in some sort of stable commited relationship and willing to plan and keep to your plans.
Judaism:
The Torah has been interpreted (not by everyone) to say that a Jewish man should have at least one son and one daughter, Jewish law states that men should not destroy or waste their "seed" (sperm). For this reason, barrier methods of contraception, vasectomies, and the withdrawal method are discouraged (although a condom may be used if its intended purpose is to protect against STDs). Jewish law permits the use of birth control in young women and those women who are nursing as well as those couples who already have at least one boy and one girl.
Q1. In their saying BC is permitted to use by young girls
A1. No answer given.
Islam:
Almost all forms of birth control are thought to be permissible in Islam. Those that are not accepted include surgical sterilization (unless it is medically necessary), as it is viewed as a form of castration as well as alters the body without need, and the withdrawal method, because it interrupts a woman’s pleasure and prevents a woman from conceiving if that is what she wants. However, the withdrawal method may be used if the woman agrees to it.
Birth control use may be allowed for various women. Instances when Islam permits the use of contraception include:
Yes there are conflicting arguments here, and contradicting questions in my head but so many things I read seem so sensable BUT I will continue on my pill until I have made a complete, confident, and agreeable .
I'd love to hear everyone else's opinions on the issues at hand. I know I've written a lot so I'm going to end it here. Can't wait for your responses.
Moral of the story: 
A child is a blessing, a miricle, and the only way that we as a people will continue on and they should be treated that way reguardless of the complications. I hope anyone reading this that might be consideringan abortion will reconsider and think of the blessing. And those who might consider it down the line I hope you think back to this
Thanks D for the heads up on the article! Please leave your comments and opinions.
♥ Mystique
Yay I finally found a ringtone maker. I got a new phone and I wasn't able to use the program I was usung before because my phone was too new of a model **boooooo**. Im about to be making ringtones out of the wazoo now lol. Before the demo is over that is.
Okay so I take that back. Dangit - they fooled me. That program is no good-im not paying for it lol.
Anyone know of a (free) program I can use or download?! HELP.
Yeah so anyway it's Sunday and Wild Wedding Night is on and you know Im all in it. It feels a whole hell of a lot later than it really is but I'm not staying up all late 'cause I have a long early day tommorow so. Im out for now.
Sorry I haven't been writing much but I've been busy and I'm trying to make that money so that I can get some things that I want/NEED done. There are a lot of things that I'm dying to have and I see them in the distance. I don't think that It'll be too hard to get them either. They aren't far off and I know this. With some hard work and focus I can get the things I want without loosing the things I need. I truley believe it's possible.
Well nite nite. Talk to yall tommorow.
♥Mystique
Yeah I don't really have much to say and I keep playing myself into thinking that it's Sunday and Wild Wedding Night is comming on **tear**
oh well. Im done with the computer and with Myspace and all that junk for the night. I have some thinking to do right now. So I'm out - write tommorow.
anyway for your amusement. ladies - if you feel me on this one ....
These dudes out here got one thing on their mind,trynna get IN like Verizon, but don't wanna sign a contract.Now they mad cuz females raisin the bar like Cingular and notgivin a BEEP BEEP bout these lame a** excuses.Please don't be alarmed when they don't give you anytime like TMobile,busy signals left and right, and more disconnects than Metro Pcs.Just in case you were wondering, this aint no pay as you go...if you're lookin for a roll over plan, Sprint to the next one,cause as we classy females will ALLTEL you, u messin with my daytime minutes!(Can you hear me now? GOOD!)
**hehehe I thought it was funny***
♥ Mystique
.Summer's Over.♥ Mystique
"listen to your heart when it's calling for you"
I always said I wouldn't get a small car cause Im small myself and if I had it my way and gas prices weren't so high I'd get the biggest truck I could. My 5 foot tail would be riding high in a Navigator or an Escalade for sure.
But the other day leaving from work I saw the cutest little beetle. I think it was the color that grabbed my eye more than anything. It wasn't that old red or yellow. It was the burnt orange that got me. I've only been in one once and I actually liked it. Me and my god brothers girlfriend rode around Boynton Beach with the top down like 2 speed divas lol. But anyway - I def'ly am feeling
Yeah so I re wrote the plot for the Zane submission again. I think it'll flow a lot better. I wonder if I can submit more than one?! That would be good 'cause then I can send in all three and not have to worry 'cause all my ideas would be there lol.
In the meanwhile thanks to Mrs.Carly I found a celebrity look alike face recognition
program that scans your face and reads out which celebrty you look like. It's funny 'cause I have been told more than a few times that I look like a few of the poepl that came up on the list. Just yesturday someone asked me if anyone ever told me if I looked like Rihanna, which I don't see at all. And My uncle swears up and down I look like Golden Brookes who plays Mya on the TV show Girlfriends.
What do yall think? Is this reading any good? I'll tell you this - I never for one second thought I looked anything like Eva Longoria. Whoa.
I was going to the bathroom when I passed by a classroom where two techers gathered just outside of the door wispering. When I heard them say a plane had crashed into the World Trade Center, I walked a little slower in disbelief trying to hear as much as I could. I figured that it was just a nasty rumour. Although I didn't think what they said was true I still couldn't help thinking about it. WOW I thought as I imagined something so massive beiing in the line of fire. I just couldn't fathom that.
After it was verified, the news of a plane hitting the World Trade Center spread through the school like wild fire.
I remember picking up the phone to call my parents, my brother, call my cousins who were closer to Manhattan than I was - I had a God mother who's office building was directly across from the WTC and an Aunt who worked in Manhattan as well.
I still remember being in class that day. Sitting, staring up at the TV that channel after channel showed a horrific picture of what looked like our city going down in flames. I glanced out the wondow almost every 5 seconds to make sure I saw nothing in the sky.
I also remember after they began letting people in and out of Manhattan again going down to ground zero as close as I can get and the sense of mourning, sadness that surrounded me.
I also remember thehuge outpouring of help that swarmmed about digging and cleaning up the rubble in the midst of all the confusion that went on around them.
There was a documentary that in my opinion was the best out of the millions of documentaries that were made for 9/11. It was a documentary made by two french filmakers. They were supposed to be focussing on probationary firefighters and suddenly everything changed when the first plane hit the towers. They were the only people who managed to have their cameras inside of the towers and got so much footage that most people couldn't live to tell.
For any of you who haven't seen it - ; this is by far the BEST documentary that I have seen till this day.
So many questions still remain and my heart goes out to those who still deal with the effects of this today. No matter what I♥NY!!!
May we keep the families and all effected by this tragedy in our hearts forever.
♥ Mystique
You all need to stop playing - go out and start reading it asap! That may be my work someday so you better start supporting now lol!!The closer and closer it gets to 9/11 and the more and more time passes by that I've left my home town I miss it more and more. I miss everything about it from the people (as mean and as fast paced as they want to be), the culture (you find a little bit of everything walking the streets of NY), the sights (from the mansions of the Hamptons' to the lights of time square).
Me and my bestest friend are planning a trip to NY in January. I haven't been back since I moved which is going on a year and 2 months. I know January is 4 months away but I'm anxious already. On the itinerary is all the touristy stuff like the old Statue of Liberty, times square, fashion ave , ice skating at Rockefeller Center, and all that jazz, we should hit the Hamptons' too. And on top of that I need to stop by my high school, see some family and friends that I haven't seen in forever and just enjoy being in NY again.
This trip is an X-Mas gift to myself (along with my sugar baby!)
Speaking of New York, I just missed the annual West Indian Day Parade in Brooklyn that me and my cousin Trena hit up every year. It's so much fun!! The people the music, and can't forget the food __. This is the second year I'm missing it due to moving. I won't be missing it anymore. Although I did get to see him before I missed my Sean Paul this year and I'm very upset about that!
I couldn't find much from this year but I did find plenty from the last year I went (2004). Enjoy.
While I was looking for pictures from this years parade and ended up stumbling across a NY photo blogger with an awesome page. His photos are great and show NY in so many different lights. To see his work click this link.
What I wouldn't give to be able to go to Jamaica Ave in the upcoming weeks to go shopping for some fall clothes, and grab a big greasy slice of pizza. Ahhhh I♥NY!!
On forward from my home sickness ...
Totally changed my story for the Zane entry - hit the archives if you don't know what I'm talking about. The characters are the same and there were some new ones introduced. It should come out pretty straight though. Im anxious to get a finished product; but Im not rushing a thing. In the meanwhile I was reading her latest during my break while I gobbled down half of a rotisserie chicken lol. I'm such a fat a**. She's such an awesome writer and hopefully entering these submissions will open some doors for me or at least it's giving me the experience of writing something for one of my fav authors to edit.
Carmel Flava is sooo good!
NOTE::Ummm TrueLyfe - get to writing. I'm tired of waiting!!!And yeah I'm going to get on you until you get to writing - stop keeping the good stuff for yourself lol. **hehe**
Ta Ta For Now
♥ Mystique
I just got all excited thinking it was Sunday and that I was about to watch Wild Wedding Night 
- wow that sucks lol
Getting Sleepy so until next time boys and girls
**Nite Nite**
♥Mystique
Yeah so Im about to get off of the computer in a little bit so I can do my hair. It's been a while but a sistah has been REAL broke the past two weeks but it's all good. I plan on getting all glamed up now that I have a few dollars in my pocket. YAY . So hopefully you'll see some pictures soon!
Sprint is f'ing around with my phone but they better get their crap together or Im going to be REALLY upset :(
Well off to make magic!
I read a bulletin today on my Myspace. It was pretty good so I got permission to share it with yall.
HOW MANY WOMEN ARE WITH A MAN THAT THEY KNOW ISNT THE ONE? SHOW OF HANDS! I WANT TO KNOW..BECAUSE FROM WHAT I AM HEARING THESE DAYS ITS LIKE A EPIDEMIC.LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO BE UNHAPPY WITH SOMEONE WHEN THERES A MILLION OTHER PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD WHO ARE PERFECT FOR U.ALOT OF TIMES PEOPLE STAY IN RELATIONSHIPS THAT ARE BORING,UNFULFILLED,AND A HEADACHE JUST BECAUSE U ALL USE TO HAVE GOOD TIMES AND HAVE WONDERFUL MEMORIES.I LEARNED WHAT IM ABOUT TO SAY YEARS AGO" JUST BECAUSE U LOVE SOMEONE AND THEY LOVE U IT DOESNT MEAN THAT U ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER.JUST BECAUSE YOUR RELATIONSHIP ONCE WAS A BEAUTIFUL THING IT DOESNT MEAN THAT U HAVE TO STAY IN IT FOREVER.PEOPLE ASK ME ALL THE TIME WHY AM I SINGLE? I WOULD RATHER BE SINGLE, ALONE & JACK OFF TO A PORNO BEFORE I EVER SETTLE!! I WILL NOT EVER COMPROMISE MY HAPPINESS OR STANDARDS FOR A RELATIONSHIP THAT IS NOT GOING ANYWHERE!! I SEE ALOT OF PEOPLE IN LONG DISTANT RELATIONSHIPS FOR LIKE 5 YEARS AND SHIT AND I ASK MYSELF" IF NEITHER U OR HE EVER PLAN ON MOVING TO THE OTHERS CITY TOGETHER WHY IN THE HELL ARE U EVEN STILL DEALING WITH IT?TO ME A LONG DISTANT RELATIONSHIP SHOULDNT BE NO LONGER THAN A YEAR.AT SOME POINT U BOTH MUST SAY" OK,WHOS MOVING" I HAVE RELOCATED FOR LOVE BEFORE.I NEVER PURSUE A WOMAN LONG DISTANCE IF I AM KNOWING IN THE BEGINNING THAT SHE DOESNT WANT TO LIVE IN THE CITY I AM AND I DONT WANT TO LIVE WHERE SHE IS AT.WHY DO PEOPLE STAY IN MEANINGLESS RELATIONSHIPS? IF THE PERSON ISNT THE SAME PERSON U FELL IN LOVE WITH THAT MADE U BE WITH THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE THEN WHY ARE U STILL WASTING YOUR LIFE ON SOMEONE THAT U KNOW U ARENT GOING TO BE HAPPY WITH? ::-Rock Solid
Wowo, good Bulletin. Finally someone writing about something worth my reading!!
..Message I recieved today.. "He doesn't want you. A man is rational remember. With reason comes clarity. If a man wants you he will move mountains to make that happen. I see no mountains moving. If you want to wait that's on you but don't expect a miracle"-Anon
Is this something to think about?!
♥ Mystique
HAPPY LABOR DAYI know it's a little on the late side but better late then never lol.
RIP
Steve Irwin 
He died doing what he loved.♥ Mystique Ps- Read my horoscope - it's quite interesting!!Im getting a surprise.Hopefully it's a good one and not a crappy one.I don't need anymore CRAP in my life lol.
Back from work. I was soo happy to get out of that hell hole lol. Ahhh now Im home and just chillin'.Work was fine with the exception of a few people that couldn't go without trying to make me angry. Soooo I told them how it was 
and went about my business. No more letting other people run my emotions.
I wish I was hungry 'cause I have food but I just don't feel like eating 
. That's something new huh lol.
Yeah so about my writing - the story is comming along perfect. I pretty much have the whole story line together, characters and all. For what I have written already I plan to
Ummmm TrueLyfe ... let's get your self together please. Im waiting on part two of the story. Im a little anxious if you can't tell. So in other words Hurry Up with it lol. I mean that in the nicest wasy possible 
- serious.
There's about 20 minutes until Wild Wedding Night starts on WE. That just makes my week complete *hehe* Can't wait - an all new episode of Bridezillas and Platinum wedding, who could ask for more?! I might just have to get back to yall after it goes of lol.
Be back .....
I started writing for my Zane entries last night. So many things got my head right that I knew if I didn't start then I would have lost a lot of ideas. I had a page full of scribbled ideas that I've written since the night I found out about it so I needed to get to work. I got so entranced in my writing that by the time I looked up to see the time it was almost 3:00am. Damn. The story is comming along great though - I might be done with it sooner than I thought - but that means more time for revising which is always great.
Working till 6 tonight and Im hoping that I can keep my patientce all day long 'cause these folks have been really working a nerve the last few days with Labor day comming and all. But 6 is alright with me 'cause that means I'll be home to watch Bridezillas and the rest of Wild Wedding Night. YAY!!!
Im updating the playlist. Gotta add my man Van Hunt to this list so listen out for him.
Well got to go for now - the thunder is telling me that it's about to rain and I have to hit Starbucks™ before work. Write Later.
♥ Mystique
♥ MystiqueOkay so I went to a home show today at the convention center downtown and I saw what will soon become my new pet. They're called sugar gliders (Petarious Breviceps) . By far the cutest little things I have ever seen.
Since I wont be able to have a dog when I move I figure this is cheaper and easier to care for. Plus I can bring them with me everywhere especially during the day because they're nocturnal but even when sleeping they like to be with there owners.
They are very social, and bond to the person who gives them good care and treats them well. If there is more than one person that feeds them and holds them they will always have a favorite person. I saw this for myself when the guy selling them gave one of the gliders to a woman to hold. The glider jumped from her hands back to his sole owner. I was like wow lol.
They have a life expectancy of 12 to 15 years if cared for properly and given the proper diet. In the wild their life expectancy is closer to 7 to 8 years; due to predators. The salesman had pictures of Sugar Gliders sleeping with cats, or riding on dogs head, but I guess that would depend on the nature of the other animal. I do have a cat but she's fairly calm and spends most time out the house.
As far as feeding goes they eat purina dog food as a source of protien and friut. So I don't have to touch a nasty bug lol
Here are some other pictures I found of the cuties.
Im sooo excited - can't wait to get one!!!
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Ill be back in a little bit to write some more.
♥ Always Mystique
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::Okay so the writing process of Improvise is officially postponed for a while::
Reason being is that Zane is taking submissions for several new books that she's editing. Im super dooper (Im such a nerd lol) excited and can't wait to get writing for them.
The titles and summaries of the books are as follows...
Asian Spice: The Eroticanoir.com Anthology: Stories that feature prominently Asians in one or more of the key roles and contain some sort of Asian theme.
Chocolate Flava 2: The Eroticanoir.com Anthology: Stories that
prominently feature African-Americans in one or more of the key roles.
A Dream Deferred, A Joy Achieved: Stories of Struggle and Triumph: Stories that are true first-hand foster care experiences, preferably with a positive outcome. Even if your time spent in the system wasn’t ideal, we’d like to hear about how it shaped you as a person and caused you to overcome and triumph in life.
Flesh To Flesh: a gay erotic anthology.
Purple Panties (Tentative Title): Stories that prominently
feature lesbian activities with African-Americans in one or more of the
key roles.
Im going to try and write for all of them but Im most excited about Chocolate Flava 2 being that the first one (Chocolate Flava) was off the hook!! I would more than love to have one of my stories published in a book that I love to read and edited by my FAVORITE author in the world. Im soo damn excited I think Im going to start writing now. Im tired though and was summonced to bed a long time ago since Im suppsed to be waking up early (blah - I hate early mornings). So maybe Ill start tommorow - I am pretty tired.Soo until tommorow. Much ♥ Mystique